It feels like I never left this place and yet the memories of the times that are now long gone flood my mind with every breath I take. 

Nothing describes my current state better than the word surreal. I cannot quite comprehend what is going on and I don't know whether I want to. It is not as bad as I thought it would be but it never is really. Though maybe this time it will get worse, I simply have to wait until the new day comes with all its worries and concerns.