Do you ever feel like you are losing the sense of what is real? It comes from within you, from the way in which you live. A lack of sleep becomes habitual - you don't even feel tired any more. There are days when you starve yourself and then there are those where you eat like there's no tomorrow. Days where you study until you can't think straight and those when you don't see the point. Through all of this you start looking on life in a simpler way. You no longer get irritated by trivial things which used to make you stressed. However, you also lash out on people. It seems like you've had too much of contact with them. You smile at them while scowling inside. Slowly you build up walls because they don't understand, they never will and you don't particularly want them to. Maybe they will try to knock the walls down. You know you've tried to do it with their own walls but you doubt that they ever appreciated your efforts. You are tired of trying. What is left is staying up past midnight and hoping that everything that you are doing is not for nothing.